judge and jury

you splintered me
the pain is there
as you entered and remain
dull, throbbing
but in me and inescapable
if I don't remove you properly
there could still be shards
that move beyond my reach

I contemplate
leaving you there
because now it's all I've got
it is familiar
maybe

it is comfortable
no
it is uncomfortable
but I like it

you built a cage around me
and filled it with requirements
I must
I want
to live up to
rise to it

the allure of your mirror
forcing me to see myself
raw
your questioning wrecks me
my endless endeavor

what's this?
a lighthouse
the fog is no match for this one
my ball of confusion
rendered mute
by this one

that light you shine on me
you humble me
quiet me
open my eyes
I want
to be

judge and jury
peace and tranquility
energy and harness
sword of truth
an agent of transformation.

2007